Do u experience a short memory loss when u juz woken up? I have experienced many many times of short memory loss when I juz woke up. This morning, I woke up wondering why my maid woke me up so early….Then, it suddenly dawned onto me that I had to be in sch by 9.30am!! And I was gg to be late!!...Shucks! This is not the first or the few times that I experience a short memory loss upon juz waking up. During school time, quite frequently, when I wake up in hall I would like wonder what do I haf to do…And onli after look at my timetable b4 I remember what class I had to go for that morning. And so most of the time, I wake up in the morning feeling rather lost (even though the nite b4, I would usually tink abt what I am gg to do the nxt day). Why liddat?

Signed up for Standchart full marathon! 42.195km!! Haas, I’m insane…I’m still contemplating if I made the correct decision anot…42.195km is no joke, its scary! I hope I will be able to survive it…

I chanced upon a body fat weighing machine today. My body fat percentage is a shocking 24%!! Gosh! That’s like the upper limit of the acceptable range for women age 18-30.

I decided to do some experimenting though. When I select the option male on the weighing machine, my body fat percentage dropped to 19%! Like HUH?! Does some women body fat NOT count as fat for men?? Then I selected the option female athlete, and my body fat percentage measured 19% again! To be sure, I checked my fat percentage under the option female again and it went back up to 24%. How weird!! The body fat weighing machine cannot be trusted!!

Finally decided to get down to blogging once again since I’m super free these days. Two weeks of no work plus no training, and just plain enjoyment of life. Been rather busy for the past few months though. In fact, so many things have happened since I last updated.

What we have trained so hard for was just taken away in that few minutes on 1st july 2007. It was pain but because of this loss, I believe ntu phoenix will fight back stronger and winning the cup nxt yr will mean so much more to us. Its not over yet, its just the beginning.

Work finally ended on 6th july. Wasn’t that pleasant an experience but it was a wake up call for me. A learning experience I would say. It’s better that I experience it now than when I officially start working.

Just last week I attended a 3.5 days camp which was rather amazing and inspiring. Learnt some interesting things about taking control over my life. Experienced some stuff that made me realize the power of visualization and belief. A new beginning...

3rd consecutive training todae. Ah hee lined us up in the boat and he called my name first. My first reaction was die!!! I dun wanna be pacer! My first pacing experience was a total mess. It was during regatta last nov. First time pacing and it must be during the competition somemore, u cannot imagine how panic I was. Anyway, that was total screwup coz I didn’t follow the 30-20 strategy. I wasn’t even conscious of my strokes. I was juz struggling to keep up with the right rower pacer. We err didn’t communicate throughout the whole race, although the rest heard li si shouting and cheryl n ye en were saying the pace too fast, but I didn’t hear anything throughout the race. Felt heavy water throughout the whole race and it was juz a totally misearable rowing experience. When we crossed the finishing line, I was juz so relieved it was over. We came in one of the last or the last, can’t really remember. Anyway, that was long over. Today, pacing was not that bad coz onli paced for 1 set, then ah hee changed pacers.

Training in school todae. Running’s a bit more xiong, running up can 1 slope 3 times followed by behind src 3 times. Didn’t realized how suan my thighs were until I reached home and did some stretching. Weights training as usual. I realized how much I had dropped, or actually I realized it about a week ago, when I went to the gym below my house with my bro, and tried to lift the 10kg weights I was like wow when did 10kg become so heavy, but in front of my bro cannot too maloo lar, so I managed to do 1 set without support. 3 weeks without lifting weights has such a great difference. I still remember juz before the exams, I went with yeen to the gym for a short while and I could still do the 11kg weights with ease.

Today, we had nite training and I felt the ting which I had feared about. But maybe its juz me being too conscious and worried over it. Perhaps its not as bad as I thought it was. Anyways, I think I can still survive it.

My parents are going for the 15km runway cycling this coming 3rd Jun. boooo…I also wan go! But 3rd Jun being a Sunday, there’s bound to be training. I could make it in time since the event flags off at 8am but the real problem is fitting 3 big bicycles in the car. I wonder how we managed to fit 5 bicycles in the car last time. But that was long long time ago when we were small and our bikes were small too.

We could cycle on sat nite to the paya lebar airbase and camp there overnight before the event starts the next morn, that would be quite cool! But nah, my parents would never agree to that. Argh, spoil the fun.

It has been a long time since we went for runway cycling. The last time we went was in 2003 when I was in sec 4. That time onli my dad, bro and me went. But we used to go runway cycling as a whole family together with my dad’s friend’s family. I think the last time we did that was in 1999 when I was pri 6. That time my mum went with my bro on the leisure fun cycle 6km route and she had a fall, coz my bro was cycling quite slowly which was ok since he was onli pri 1, but tink somebody from behind wanted to overtake them and then they collided. Since then my mum kinda feared cycling but she picked it up again this year.

That particular runway cycling in 1999 was fun too coz my dad was accompanying my younger sis and my dad’s friend was accompanying his daughter and wife, so they let me and my dad’s friend’s son cycle by ourselves. When we finished the 12km route, we didn’t see many people so we thought we were supposed to go another round and so we did. So we cycled 24km in total and got scolded when we finished coz I think we were supposed to go and collect goodie bags, that’s why they let us cycle off first, but in the end we came back even later then them.

Today marks our first official training since the exams ended. Ah hee came up with some interesting stuff which we heard from those who went for mixed training last weekend. It was kinda fun I must say, and not that bad after all. But this is juz the beginning. As ah hee said, todae is considered half training onli.

Today, we went kayaking. Actually I wasn’t sure if today was the real training or own time own target kind. The message sounded like it was real training. Anyway, I misunderstood the message. Didn’t think that the 1 meant 1pm, I thought it was a typo, haas silly me. So went for kayaking instead of dragonboating. Anyway, the alumni boat didn’t haf space for anymore left rowers.

Kayaking was torturous, as I had feared. Haas, even since sec 3 obs kayaking experience, I had always been apprehensive about kayaking. During that obs experience, me and my partner could not kayak straight and we were struggling to keep up with the rest of the pack. It was quite frustrating, afterall we were from ncc leh, how come cannot even kayak faster than some of the non-sport people. But its not my partner’s fault coz after that we change partner, and me and my new partner still cannot kayak straight but my old partner could now kayak straight. It was truly miserable experience coz it was a round pulau ubin kayaking experience and we couldn’t stop. Back then, I thought it was something wrong with that particular kayak but now, having todae’s experience, I think the problem is in me. haas, cannot be every kayak I’m in got problem. But that’s not the real reason why I fear kayaking. Its something else which I shouldn’t say.

Anyway, kayaking was real tiring, partly coz we couldn’t kayak straight. Weishan and gekling are so pro, they seem to be able to kayak straight with ease. I wonder how they manage to do it. But anyway, I am not going to kayak anymore, I’d rather row dragonboat.

After kayaking, I went to suntec to attend a wine-tasting session and I won a 1.5 ltr of stoney vineyard, domain A wine! 2nd time I won a bottle of wine. The 1st time was when I was in lower sec or upper pri, and I managed to fix some puzzle at an overseas wine bar and the owner of the wine bar gave me a bottle of wine for free! I think I gave that bottle to my mum, either for her birthdae, mother’s day or Christmas, many years ago.

Today went out with my dad to do his stuff. Yea, he is always making me go along with him, which is rather maddening at times. But I guess I am quite lucky that my dad brings me out for exposure, and I should try to be appreciative of that.

So today, we met my dad’s old classmate whose working at EFG bank. I didn’t know such a bank existed, but apparently EFG stands for some European Financial Group if I remembered correctly. Then we had lunch at a nice Teochew restaurant while they talked about business stuff. The main reason why I hate to go for such stuff is coz I’m like a fool liddat, 20 years old already still dunno how to join in their conversation and this feeling really suxs. So I erm usually juz listen. Anyways, the food was great. The water chestnut drink was super nice and so was the yam paste.

After that, we went to meet a banker at American Express and listen to him talk about options, exchange, etc. As usual I don’t quite understand wad’s going on. But occasionally hear of put options and call options which we learn before in financial management. Then they were talking about buying put and call and it seems like the arbitrage opportunities that the fm lecturer mentioned but up till now I haf no idea how to calculate that, heng it didn’t come out for the exams. But that banker was like so knowledgeable, and he can think veri fast, I was like wow.

I guess I’m really lucky to haf such a dad.

The freaking rain screwed up our canoeing plan today. When I was on the mrt, actually already noticed the black clouds, but was hoping it wouldn’t rain. Argh, it always rains at the wrong time. Wad a wasted trip!

My parents and especially my dad is getting fed up with me lazing around, not studying, not reading, not working and juz wasting my life away. Come on! Its like onli the 3rd day since my exams ended. Why can’t I sleep for as long as I like? and I realli realli hate reading so can't u like spare me from this. Argh. This is so maddening. Yes, I’m going to work. And its too bad I can’t start earlier. Its juz less than 2 weeks before I start work so can I like play now while I still can? Life’s gonna get busy with work and night trainings starting in less than 2 weeks time.

Anyways, I’m gg out tmr. Nah, not shopping. I hate shopping. I’m going canoeing! Time to get out, before my dad gets even more fed up with me wasting my time and life doing nth productive. Not that he approves of canoeing either, its juz a waste of time to him. But who cares, I’m gonna haf fun tmr!

Time to start preparing for the next war. Haas, it’s the PM cup! I dun really care if I get to row anot anymore, which is most likely the case. I know I once had the chance and I screwed it up big time at regatta and I’m really sorrie to my teammates who had train hard for regatta even though it was juz days to the exams. That was the turning point and now I need to train hard to stay in the team. But I know I like the team, I like the sport and I want to stay in it. So let’s train hard together and get bring PM cup back. Its not gonna be easy but nothing worth getting comes easy.

Today was cool! My dad, mum, bro and I cycled to Pandan Reservoir today. The view was unbelievable. It felt like I was on holiday in Australia, rotting by the park, it was so not like Singapore. I suggested we should dabao early lunch and picnic by the reservoir and so we did. We sat on the rocks by the water eating our meal. It was sooo sooo cool. Actually Pandan Reservoir is not that far after all.

Our or rather my original plan was much more exciting but it would take a miracle to get everyone to follow it. So here goes my dreamed 1 day of cycling plan. In the morning, we were supposed to wake up early ard 7am and cycle to botanic gardens for a picnic of bread, ham, cheese and chips. Then we were supposed to cycle to pandan reservoir for lunch by the water side and finally to jurong east for a nice dinner.

Oh wells, even though things did not go as planned, we still had a fun cycling outing today! =)

The exams are finally over. I’m glad but not that crazily happy feeling. Most people would rather end exams earlier but I’d rather haf more time to study and end later. Oh wells, its over. This time I kinda really screwed it up real bad. Juz hoping that it’ll not turn out too badly. I dun even tink I can even get a C for Biz Law, IT and HRM, got a C for 30% of biz law grades and probably a C too for 50% of IT . I’m not even sure if I can get A for both Accounting I and Financial Management to pull up my grades, gt onli A- for 50% of Acc grades and dun tink I got even A- for 50% of FM grades. Haiz, my GPA’s gonna hit rock bottom. There goes my chance for 2nd specialization in banking and finance too. My parents are sooo gonna kill me. Not even a miracle can save me this time. But its over already, work harder next sem, if not there goes my future, my career and my life.

Anyways today I moved out of hall. Didn’t realized that I had sooo many things in hall. It took a full car to bring all my stuff home. Haas, but at least it could all fit in. Settled in 1 trip, yay!

So I left my room, the room I stayed for 1 academic year juz liddat. No pictures, no looking back. I kinda miss it now. 1 year has passed by so fast. I still remember the first time moving in. I had just got back from Tibet in the early morning, ard 1-2am and woke up to a call ard 9am (tink it was from Geraldine or weilin). Then I quickly checked the hall allocation results and called therese, my 1st sem roomie, to go to clean our room and check out hall camp details too. When we first entered our room, it was filthy dirty, not like a place to stay. The bed was stinky and like rotten. The toilet was disgusting. It was the kind of no way I’m gonna stay here feeling. Then somemore, it was a Saturday and hall camp was starting the next day and I juz realized that. So we had to quickly clean up the place coz I had to attend the 2.30pm golf class instead of the usual sun class so I could go for hall camp. The room was still less than half clean but fortunately my mum agreed to come help me clean the room on Sunday morning before hall, and she cleaned the whole toilet for me and my dad even helped me bring a mattress to hall. So nice!

So now, its goodbye to my room. Not too sure if I can get back the same room next semester coz I used the sports scheme to get a room. Means they will ballot and I’ll most likely not get to stay in hall 2 since there are so many IVP in hall 2 and they contributed to hall games but I didn’t. Had no choice but to use the sports scheme to secure a room coz I onli got 8 points. The school tinks I take 35mins from home to school by public transport so I onli get 1 point for distance. Like real lor. I take 35mins by car, that’s more like it. Oh wells, I’ll juz be glad to get a room.

Quite a while since I last updated, so I shall update now. Haas.

Today, went ost running wif ye en. We slow jogged 4 rounds and sprinted 2 rounds track, but was feeling sluggish and hungry so the run was not veri effective. I’m quite slow at sprinting, always lag behind during esp for short distance like 100m sprint, not that I’m tired to the limit but juz that its like the fastest speed I can move my legs leh. Dies, super loads of sprinting to come during trainings after exam, so not looking forward to that. I fell asleep for 45 mins, while trying to study FM for upcoming quiz. Argh. So decided to go ost running again at night wif teddy, soo shuen, jolene and candice juz now. After last mon’s experience, we couldn’t let candice be the pacer again, so teddy n I paced. But erm, teddy was fast too, especially when she sees pple running in front of us and wants to overtake them. But it was a good run!

Last sun, i.e. yesterday, went cycling for breakfast. And I was cyling with the nasi lemak we dabao for my sis. So went I cycled upslope the nasi lemak packet kept swaying here and there, and the Styrofoam box opened a bit, and some chilli split out. Somemore it was raining so erm, some rainwater went in. But my sis still ate it. Haas. 3 times of cycling this weekend, nice nice. =)

Last sat, went cycling twice! Cycled to clementi for breakfast. We were in a rush so didn’t check the tire b4 we left. My back tire needed to pump air, maybe that’s y I was having a hard time cycling. Was wondering why so short distance, my leg can get so suan. At night, we went cycling again. =) This time we cycled further to jurong east. 2nd time going this far, but actually its not tough at all. If you can cycle to west coast park which we used to do so frequently, past the dreaded nus slope, then cycling to anywhere else is a breeze. Ate some nice food at jurong east. Let’s cycle there again nxt sat.

Last fri, went for free massage wif my dad at jurong east!! Am not really enthu abt massage. The best one I had was in Thailand last june. But todae the massage was quite impressive I muz say. The massage equipment is rollers made of natural jade stone (which naturally emits infra-red, which is supposedly gd). Then there are light bulbs fixed inside the jade stone roller which would emit heat, i.e. infra-red. Hmm, no idea why is infra-red good. But the heat makes the massage more relaxing and nice. Relieved my shoulder and back ache. =)

Last thurs, I went home at last!! Couldn’t wait to go home so I msged my dad to pick me straight after accounting tut. My mum came too and we had lunch at can 1. Ate sour and spicy noodle (suan la mien), one of my fav food. When I was still in jc, at times, my family would come to ntu to eat on sat and I would almost always eat suan la mien. But when I started uni, tink the chief changed so the suan la mien not as nice as before. But today, it was nice! Missed out on ost at gym wif yr 1s and ost running wif teddy coz I went home, wasted. But at night, played tennis wif my bro. First time play until so shiok!! We managed to keep the tennis ball flying. Yea man, that’s the real game, unlike in the past where we haf to keep picking up the tennis balls. Then we went swimming. Argh, I need a new swimsuit. The old one’s too stretched, now can onli go swimming at night.


Last wed, actually wished that team lunch would be today budden its on thurs. hmm, tink coz I asked tay chuan why team lunch always wed de. Haas, ok but first time looking forward to team lunch, even though din haf team lunch. So went can 4 to eat wif FM groupmates. Eh, the food there not veri great leh. I onli went can 4 once during orientation on 1st day of sch and the food sucks. But since my FM groupmates always go there and eat on weds, thought maybe there’s some nice food there. Maybe its juz the chicken dishes that are nice, but I dun realli eat chicken, tastes fake to me.

Last tue, pon mentoring session for the 3rd time. 1st time was coz of NAF preparations, 2nd time was coz of rushing biz law report and this time was coz its parent meeting session. Actually I wouldn’t mind going, but its kinda weird lar, last 3 sessions consecutively never see my tutee, a bit hard to evaluate her, so wad I feedback will probably not be very accurate or useful.

Last mon, went ost running with sharon, candice, sarah, soo shuen n jolene. Pacers were candice and sharon. Erm, so the pace was quite fast to me. And they chionged up the slopes. But it was a good run! Haven’t had such a good run for quite long. Was quite effective last mon, managed to complete biz law tut qn 2, which my grp was presenting. So I’ll be able to contribute during the discussion. That left me in a gd mood last mon.

Can’t believe sch’s starting tmr again. I’m like so not prepared for the start of sch. haas, always have this kinda feeling every sun when I come back to hall. Need some time to settle down and get into the school mood. Last sem was worst, had marketing tutorial and ob tutorial on mon. So lesson learnt, I put the most slack lesson, i.e. IT, on mon for this sem. The even better thing that IT starts at 9.30am, unlike my other days which all start at 8.30am.

Today, am feeling more unprepared for sch than usual coz we juz had db team steamboat at marina bay until quite late and I juz got back to hall. And I see SEVEN email replies on our IT project within less than 24hrs!!! argh, overwhelmed! Ok, I’ll look at it soon. Better try to contribute to the project.

Today I cut my hair! Am quite pleased with it, though the fringe part like quite weird, quite thick hor. But overall still ok. The only frustrating part is it’s hard to tie my hair now, and I got quite fed up trying to tie it up before training. The weather is so hot, that I’ll die from more heat if I dun tie up my hair.

So today marks the last official training. Weekends will feel kinda weird without trainings. But anyways, its not gonna be a total break from exercising. Still needa do some light jogging and sprints?! (hate and sux at sprinting) But somehow I usually feel more like exercising during the exam period. It’s a good break in between studying too, as compared to watching TV or chatting online to relax for a while. So study hard and dun forget to exercising a bit too.

3 weeks to the exams! Scary…I’ve not started studying for the exams yet. Still trying to do tutorials, quizzes and project. Argh, I really muz start this week. It’s time to get into the exam mood.

Mouse is a happier girl coz she’s at home now!! =) and tiga doggy is wif me too. Today, tiga did a gd deed. He found the missing hamster under the cabinet. No wonder he kept staring at the cabinet and trying to stick his head under the cabinet. Coz the hamster was hiding under the cabinet near the wheels.

Today I was quite cui for training. My fitness is quite bad these days. Even before reaching the second bridge, which tink is less than 1.5km, I was already dying from the run, thanks to the freaking stitch. Then when running back that time, keep having this light-headed feeling, not really dizzing, more like floating kind of feeling, argh, dunno how to describe lar. Then when I stopped, the light-headed feeling hit me worse, makes me feel like puking, but I din lar, coz I had nth to puke anyway. The light headed feeling lasted quite long. Gd thing we get to sit when rowing, so its not that bad. But when first started rowing, I felt quite shitty, coz the boat like keep jerking forward, makes me wanna puke. But after a while, it gets ok.

So I din go cycling tonight. If on normal days, I would keep pestering and insisting that we go cycling. But nah, todae I think I’ll lag behind if we go cycling so I’m kinda glad we din cycle even though I was looking forward to it. At least the light headed feeling now is gone. Phew. Light headedness was probably why now I completely stop drinking milk tea. Coz I got scared out when I had super low blood pressure like the day before my stats exam last sem, so yea I don’t drink milk tea now even though I like it. I should drink less green tea too, though I rely on it to keep me awake during lessons.

Today has been rather ineffective once again. In fact, the past whole week has been ineffective. And its only 3 weeks to the exams. hElPs! Where has my motivation for studying gone to?!? If only I could be as motivated, like I was in sec 3 & 4. Those were the peak of my academic days. In jc, my motivation for studying kinda died off, but fortunately it was revived in j2, largely due to panic and thanks to having a good study partner, jasmine. I thot last sem was bad enuf, but to think of it now, last sem was much better than this sem. At least I did study harder and more than this sem, it was just that I lacked time or rather had poor time management. On the contrary though, this sem I’m like super ultra loads of free time, I even haf a free day, yet I am not studying at all! My parents may think trainings are affecting my studies. But no, its really not. Even with training, I seriously have loads of free time. Even without training, I’ll just waste those extra time. Argh, 3 weeks left, I must find my motivation back before its really too late.

Sometimes I think it’s the super loneliness that makes me ultra inefficient in hall. Sometimes I just wish I had someone to study tgt with and not just facing the four walls in hall. When I see people walking tgt to lecture theatres, tutorial rooms or canteen, I’m envious of them. Sometimes when I see others talking and laughing with each other during tutorials and lectures, I just wish I could too. Sometimes I just wish I did not haf to dabao lunch n dinner and eat in the room alone, just because I don’t want to eat alone in the crowded canteen, where everyone else are eating in groups. Sometimes I just wish I had not stayed in hall and was at home. I noe it sounds stupid and ridiculous. But that’s how I really feel and its my blog, so just let me be myself and say wad I feel.

So just now, I decided to go to my hall’s study room in hope that there would be others studying there too. Even though I’ll not know them, it just the studying atmosphere that will be motivating. But no, there was NO one in the freaking study room. So it was just the same as being in my room, me alone in the big quiet room. haiz, tried doing my tutorials but yea, I just felt bored. So here I am back in my room, since it doesn’t make a difference anyway.

I’m not that independent or self-reliant you noe. I thought I was, I really believed I was, I though I could survive this all by myself. I thought it was the least important issue anyone could be bothered about, I though it didn’t matter at all to me, afterall I don’t get close to people, not even my friends, only my close friends, which is like 3 onli but I haf lost contact with them anyway. Actually I think all this is just my own doings. It’s the way interact with others, shut myself from others, not motivating or encouraging or comforting others when that’s wad friends should do, that lead to this result.

Sometimes I really wish I had someone to study tgt with but I noe why I don’t. No one likes to study with others if they cannot be achieve greater effectiveness or motivation. Maybe I should not say that I’m sianz or bored to others, when I am, not that I want to make others feel sianz too, but its just the way I vent out the boredom, but I guess it appears that this affects others negatively. I should just keep all these negative useless feelings to myself. No one likes to hear such stuff. Instead, I should try to be more considerate and motivate others too. Its like give and take. If all I do is look for motivation, encouragement from others, yet I dun offer any, I won’t be deserving of any, and no wonder the situation is as it is now.

Its like wad xiaohong said about dragonboat races. Even if u don’t get to row, u should still send your teammates off to the startpoint, remind them to take water and extra paddle, encourage them and help them to relax before the race. It’ll let ure teammates noe that ure there for them and nxt time when u get to row, they’ll be there for u. How true! I’m really enlightened. Actually I really admire how some people manage to give wise advice. Such phrases or words really help motivate others. But too bad, I’m not good at creating these wise phrases.

Ok, I’d better get back to my tutorials. I promised to finish them so that I can go cycling tomorrow night. Come on mousey, u can do it, its just takes a few hours of concentration. Motivation comes from within, you’re a big adult now, grow up and focus on what needs to be done. Keep negative feelings to yourself and if it really needs to be let out, let it be limited to the boundaries of this blog. Be less selfish, remember to receive you must first give. Be a changed person, start afresh, there’s only 3 weeks left and you noe there’s been hardly anything done. Suddenly I feel motivated, or I imagined to haf felt it. =) is just a surface thing...

It’s been super long since I last blogged, more than a month. February and half of march juz zoom past like this. I’ve been lazying around too much during this time, not studying, not blogging and juz wasting my time. I’ve even been studying less than my brother, which means almost no studying at all. That’s really bad.

I think blogging is a good thing, it helps to reflect one each and every day, how u spend ure time. So from now on, I shall start blogging once again. 1 month till the start of exams, scary. Yet another semester zooming by just like that. I muz not waste this one last month. I’m already pretty screwed up wif my studies.

Juz some thoughts, what’s the point of holding on when things are not going to change. Or issit juz me that the efforts and fighting spirit is not in there. Its juz a simple minor one, yet I still dun get a chance. But perhaps its juz me. Chances are only for the derserving, they need to be earned. But I dun wanna let go too. Sigh. ok, dun tink abt it until after the exams.

Time to get started with accounting then IT project. Byes…

Forgot to bring home my swimming stuff and tennis balls!! Freak FREAK freak!!! I’ve been having this urge/ desire to go swimming and now its ruin! Argh! Then I can’t play tennis too coz I forgt to bring home the tennis balls! Crap! What a waste of this 5 days hol! I sooo want to go SWIMMING!! Damn it! =(

Argh, am sianzz of running these days, so went cycling instead. Cycled to ulu pandan CC where my parents were having qi gong lessons. Then cycled to and fro the CC and home while waiting for them to walk home. Had fun cycling up and then down (whEeee) the slopes, but then again I still haf this desire to go swimming!!!! Argghhhh….can’t wait for another wk again…sigh…

Going to sicc wif my dad tmr…yea, to play golf -_-" I wan to go swimming at sicc!! not golf! Argghhh…

Todae was one super long dreaded day. FM seminar 8.30-11.30am, NAF 11.30-2.00pm, French tut + quiz 2.30-5.30pm, HR quiz 5.30-6.45pm, training 7 – 9pm…weds are always such a dreaded long day…but todae was an especially packed one, glad tt I survived it.

Quizzes were quite cui though. For French, I forgot on which alphabet to put the accent n the direction of the accent (point upwards or downwards) n forgot quite a lot of spelling. Shucks! HR quiz was bad too, fortunately its mcq, if not I confirm fail. It was onli 40 mcq and he made us sit and wait there for the whole 1 hr. sianzz…

I actually carried HR textbk n French to training then to home on sat. I was quite determined to study leh…but in the end, I didn’t even study a single bit of it…grrr…I fell asleep again…and no one woke me up. argh, so I woke up like at abt 6am…gah, too late can, haf to go for sun training...lesson learnt: no point bringing any bks home on sat…

Training todae was quite fun…I sooo miss wed trainings…all coz of the sickening HR lect, the lecturer talks sooo freaking slowly. 18 slides can easily finish in 1 hr, he can take 3 hrs. faints…

NAF Valentine’s Day carnival todae. I think its soo much better than the opening ceremony.

i'm sooooo freaking dead tmr...9hr lesson day + 2 quizzes =(

These days, have begin to like teaching. I enjoy teaching, and that love for teaching is being strengthened, reinforced whenever I go for mentoring. I did consider becoming a teacher in future when I was in j2. But then again I can’t control a whole class of mischievous kids. Oh wells, the introvert side of me strongly dominates the extrovert side. The most I can do is probably giving one-on-one tuition. But one cannot earn much giving tuition leh. Gah, can’t imagine being an accountant in 2.5 hrs time. Desk-bound job…sianzz not looking forward to it.

Anyways, my tutee din come todae! She must haf been tired after her camp and play performance during the weekend. Gah, if I knew I wouldn’t have gone todae. But I had a rather good experience mentoring todae though! =)

Initially, my mind was not at mentoring coz I was trying to rush FM presentation slides before mentoring, so my mind was still on my work. Then somemore my new tutee hardly respond to me. Everytime I ask question then she’ll pause for many minutes. Having a taste of my own medicine (quietness) yea. Pek chek!

But then I remembered what a children counselor taught us during one of the life-skills training for this mentoring programme. She said that children are very sensitive, they can sense when ure mind is not with them. And she taught us how to clear our mind and bring our mind to mentoring the kids. So wells, tried to forget about the FM presentation and the whole mess of tutorials/test, etc. and gave my mind fully to mentoring.

And it worked yea! My new tutee seemed more relaxed, started talking a bit more and even laughed at times. Yea man! We were more effective that way. And we had more fun yea.

I was doing the talking almost all the while k. Normally in sch, I talk less than 5 sentences a day, unless I meet rosemary or wl during the day. haas, its tt bad. But not close to anyone in NTU (I don’t think I ever will) nor my roomie, so wells nothing much to talk about. Won’t be surprised if there was a day in NTU when I didn’t say a single word. But during mentoring, I was talking for most of the 1.5 hr. Amazed by myself.

Mentoring made my day! WheeEeE…=)

Finished FM tutorial at 4 plus in the morn on sat! hees, coz fri nite went to ting guan’s rm to watch movie until abt 2 plus. Then he was falling asleep lor..dots, movies are boring yea...but at least after watching then didn’t feel so sianz anymore. So went back and slack for a while then do FM tutorial and I finished it! Gd thing I finished it coz I wouldn’t have done it even if I brought FM back home, so would haf missed FM presentation slides deadline.

My parents juz gt back frm the US. And my dad bought me a new tennis racket!! =) And a seat cushion for my bike!! =) And a helmet for cycling?! -_-" I’m NOT gg to wear some freaking helmet! Dun care! I shall juz protest!

And the first thing my mum did was to complain that I grew fatter again. And make me do weird leg exercises and promise to do them everyday. -_-" Oh yar, and my mum bought me an anti-aging sunblock, coz she’s always complaining I’m burnt but then again the sunblock she bought is only 50spf lor.

Saturday after training was watching TV then I fell asleep (not intention leh). Then I woke up onli at 3 plus in the morning. Sianzz. My dad was complaining to my mum todae that some rat woke up at 3 plus, rummaged the kitchen and then he thot the rat would start doing her studying but she went back to slp. Rummaged the kitchen!! That’s total exaggeration. I onli had 3 pieces of biscuit!

Todae was surf and sweat. Surfing was surprisingly quite fun coz I managed to move! hees, didn’t get stuck behind. Phew! Was so afraid I’ll lag behind and be so pathetically splashing water but not moving. But running sucks, not in the running mind todae, juz couldn’t push myself to really run. Yenni actually slowed down and waited for me. Whao, if not for her I would have stopped to walk a bit yea. But then cannot slow yenni down too much so no choice had to keep running and try to keep up if not unfair to her rite. Thanks yenni!

Am super duper sianz..Todae hasn’t been productive at all. Guess for nxt week, I shall go home after nite sea rowing on thur. The only 2 reasons why I stayed in hall todae was coz sat gt bus to training, so I dun haf to walk to dover mrt and from kallang mrt to training site, and more importantly, dun need to worry tt I’ll be late. haas. Second reason is coz FM presentation slides are due this sun and dun wanna carry my tb n laptop home by myself. Gah, but I haven even done my FM presentation yet. Crap! Dun even noe how to do it coz I wasn’t paying attention during FM.

If I go home, I’ll waste even more time. U’ll probably find me walking around the hse, disturbing everyone or sleeping rather than sitting down to do my work. But since Fridays are juz as unproductive in hall, might as well go home. Then can play wif my little tiga doggie, and can disturb everyone, especially my grandma, haas, dun complain I disturb u coz I love ya and I miss ya, juz wan some attention frm u while I’m home.

Home for such a short period of time. After training on sat, reach home onli ard 5. By time would be starving so haf lunch-cum-dinner and then go bathe. Will then try to do some tutorials but always end up dozing off (so now, can’t be bothered to bring my bks home anymore). Makes me quite pek chek, so will go n sleep for a while. When I wake up and try to find a com to use, parents get quite (recently, it has been very rather than quite) fed up coz I come home onli eat and sleep, not doing any studying. So will get even more pek chek then try to study for a while before sleeping again. Sun early morn leave home for training. After training, reach home ard 2, then eat bathe and pack to go back to hall. Pathetic weekend…Makes me so super sianzzz staying in hall these days….Ain’t there anything interesting to do?!

Todae’s training was quite funny!! Keep having fishes jumping into the boat. But the fishes didn’t jump into the boat near my seat leh…I also wan to see the fishes!! hahas… Night sea rowing is sooo much more fun! The water’s so calm and peaceful plus there’s the nice cool weather. It just feels much more relaxing.

I love thurs!! Especially after 12.30pm, it’s like I’m finally free!! No more tutorials to bother about, at least for the moment! haas…so nice, so relaxing! =)

Wheee!! After training, I managed to finish tmr’s biz law tutorial before night run!! That made my day! (forgot wadever unhappiness or cock-ups I had during the day) For once, no need to chiong tutorial until 2, 3am. That’s the way! Keep it up! =)

Stamina has seriously dropped. No more running wif ting guan until I build up my stamina and speed. Paiseh, affected their run, made them stop and wait for me once coz I too slow. Tired is no excuse, learn to overcome it. Anyways, running is still great! Makes my day too! hahas, I’m quite easily satisfied yea.

Gotta go look thru accounting for tmr’s test le…byes!

My tutee is sooo cute! She really brightens up my tuesdays every week. Had a fun time todae. Managed to finish her homework rather quickly so we played hangman and tic tac toe… I’m once again impressed with my tutee! I’m surprised rather. Underneath her quiet self, she’s actually a very brave and active kid. She’s not afraid to dance or even act on stage in front of her whole school. I’m beginning to discover more about my tutee as time goes by. The phrase “Never judge one by his/her appearance” could not feel more true. Glad that my tutee’s opening up more to me now, and yep, we’re having more fun this way, occasionally talking about other stuff than work too. =)

My eating habit is in a whole mess these days. Not that I’m particularly concerned about that, there’s other more important stuff to worry about. But anyways, dinner is often overlooked. On Saturdays, I’ll usually have combined breakfast/lunch/dinner after training at abt 5 plus. Sunday’s normal coz I’ll have dinner with my parents before coming back to hall. Mondays, usually no mood after French tutorial or too lazy to go down to the canteen for dinner, so I’ll look for my bread and biscuits. Tuesdays, usually nap a while before mentoring, and tend to oversleep so haf to rush off for mentoring, bread/biscuits for quick dinner again. Wednesdays, coz haf continuous 5 hr class frm 3.30pm then if class ends early haf to faster go for training. Since I’ll miss the running during training, I’ll probably run at nite so can’t possibly haf dinner after training and run shortly after tt. Thurs, will nap a while before nite sea rowing, and over sleep yea, so probably grab some bread/ biscuits after training at abt 10pm. Fridays, depends on whether I’m too lazy to go down to the canteen. That’s my messy eating habit these days. ahhas, my mum’s gonna kill me if she noes I’m taking so much carbohydrates. She’s always complaining that I’m getting too fat. But yea, I’m so freaking heavy now. Have put on 7kg since the start of uni (frm 46 kg to 53 kg now). I never did imagine myself in this weight range! =X

Went for relaxing jogging after mentoring. Luckily it was a slow jog, coz I didn’t really want to run todae as my knees were rather hurting in the afternoon (right knee is old injury but surprised that left knee was hurting too). Anyways, the weather was nice again! So it was a refreshing jog yea! =)

Tmr gonna be one busy day….so bye for now…

Things are still in a mess…

Was demoralised during french tutorial yet again. Sigh, now I really regret taking level 2. But nothing comes easy yea…It’s just that everyone else could answer her questions quickly and well-answered…all BUT me…yea, not again…

Feeling so irresponsible…my messed up life is affecting others...games manager for weiqi ih, yet I have absolutely no idea how they did for ih nor do I know who actually played for weiqi ih, coz yea I was in penang for db race…and then joined dnd sub com biz mag, but nah, I did not help out in any canvassing at all, coz yea the first one clashed wif training, then I was not involved anymore…and then naf biz mag, effort was there (at least tt’s wad I feel) but nah, I haven’t given my all to look for sponsors…and then project work, grp meetings crash wif one another coz of last min discussion, wth, arrange grp meeting can be so painful…Sigh, gotta be more responsible. Why should others be affected by my mEsSeD uP LIfE…

Break from all these mess: Went for night run wif kee quan. He is super fast! Either that or my stamina has really dropped! hmm, seems more like the latter. I was practically trying to catch up with him throughout the whole 179 route. In need of more running to build up stamina! Anyways, the weather was super nice and cool todae! =) I could not feel my sweat even after the run. It felt as though I had not run at all. ahhas, wad an understatement of todae’s run…

Ups and downs in a day, tt’s my typical day nowadays…running's my survival kit...