I slept at ard 7.30pm last nite!! And I only awoke to my alarm clock at 7.15am. Heng I remembered to set alarm b4 dozing off. It was an unintentional extremely long sleep, tink I was too tired frm tue nite's no slp chiong IT project, I fell asleep b4 collecting my washed clothes frm the washing machine, & someone dumped it into a paper bag on the floor, argh! Either the person din see my pail there or is juz plain irritating to dump my clean clothes in a dirty paper bag on the floor….

But I was still tired by the 2nd class at 10.30am….haas, am such a pig…could barely type properly after lunch, so I went to zzzz again for abt 2hrs….haha…shucks, I need to learn to survive sleeping less…

Anyways, was in a quite gd mood this evening, coz I managed to sort out tmr’s 201 presentation before training, thks to pok’s ans otherwise it was quite a headache trying to figure out what is going on. Shucks, I tink I’m really damn stupid, I didn’t even know how to start answering the qn. Shucks, my studies is like damn screwed up now. Really needa start catching up wif my studies, it's march already, but first gotta settle all the projects stuff first.

Todae we had long and slow team run, okaes not really that long and slow, I thought we would have continued running towards biological sci slope instead of turning into near hall 16, and that was one long slope, but the pace up the slope was rather slow. The juniors really improved a lot, and my buddy too, though she’s still haven fully recover frm her flu/cough, she didn’t lag at all. Good job buddy.

My rowing still suxs, the top arm bending bad habit is back again and I juz saw for myself and realised how bad it is…argghhh….will try to keep it straight, but its quite hard, still dunnoe how to use the back shoulder muscle for punching in, i cannot feel the power of using back shoulder muscle for punching in, helps, damn sucky…argghh…for now, I juz wan my left shoulder to pls pls recover back fast….this wk nv really do weights training but still the damn lousy shoulder is hurting again, damn irritating….ok, still gt 1 more day to recover back, it’ll be ok by sat race, really hope so…really hope we can win a medal...if can, it’ll be my very very first…

Stoning…

After all the mad rush for the past few days….haiz…nth seems to be fine…really needa stop screwing up all my presentations & quizzes…& I needa stop sleeping during class…arghhh….

I got a new lappie, at long last. =) My old laptop was quite useless, couldn’t connect to wireless and couldn’t operate without power plug, so always cannot bring my laptop for project meetings. Luckily got my new lappie, so can mad rush IT last night camping over in school.

After the mad rush ended juz an hr ago, am feeling rather lost…needa reorganise…for tonite, I guess I juz wanna read 202 project for tmr & sleep early, wake up early and be early for class tmr…always have problem hearing the alarm the next morning if the night before I didn’t sleep…quite scary, I’ll hear the alarm tmr morn…

Race this weekend…Sooo fast…mixed feelings…excited yet worried…tough opponents…

Todae’s not a bad day afterall…..

3 project meetings + training, but meeting were all short ones =)

IT project meeting with prof did help clarify some doubts abt the flowchart. But our IT project is quite a mess, and far far far from completion, yet the deadline is in 1 wk time!! Shucks, I haven’t done enuf for IT project. My IT grp too nice already, so I always do other projects first, this is damn bad…Argh, I’ll do smth tonite.

Had 202 meeting, luckily I was quite early and the grp came late, so had some time to think abt the case and prepare. But I only stayed for an hr, then had to leave for training, oops am such a bad grp member, but they didn’t want to meet earlier. I had yummy belgian chocolate ice blended! Really helped me concentrate.

Time seemed to pass especially fast during training today. Sometimes the feeling’s there, but sometimes I just can’t seem to find back that feeling. Argh! Finally managed to feel it at the last bit, when doing the 300m sets, but still the motion not smooth, super jerky, shucks…

Ate macs during 205 meeting. And I ate the whole meal!! I was quite hungry, haha. Shucks, super unhealthy. I shdn’t have eaten macs, tend to give me the headaches I dunnoe why, maybe too much msg. Wasn’t really prepared for 205 meeting, argh, still haven’t got much clue how to solve the qn.....

Shucks, gave in to temptations to watch tv!!

Haiz, freaking hate it when pple keep pressing me…pls lar, I will do my part!! I am NOT a free rider!!...freaking shit…haiz...why why why…pple always tink tt way of me…haiz…internship screw up becoz of tt, project mates also tink I liddat…haiz…why!?!?! I am not liddat!!!....haiz….ok, I really gotta come up with some solid analysis for tmr project discussion. haizzzzz…I foresee getting zero for peer evaluation….wadever…I am already so freaking screwed….haizzzzzz…maybe u r right, I haven done much, but I am doing it now!!! And the project just started can….haizzz…=(=(=(=( why issit I can’t seem to get along with anyone, except old frens…haizzzzz….

Didn’t get E&Y internship =( Haiz....Never doing anything right, my last 2 internships I also screw it up. Haiz, this is sooo bad, don’t know how I’ll survive in future. Haiz, so worrying….

Anyway just got scolded by my dad…Haiz, every scolding always ends up pointing to db training...haiz...i will study, i really want to…it’s not the training that’s affecting my studies, it’s my own procrastination, laziness, lack of drive...haiz…

And it’s freaking hurting again...freaking irritated…can u be stronger anot...

Haiz…want to catch up with my studies also cannot…every day project, project and still project…haiz…I haven’t even study for the damn quiz can….haiz…

Haiz…can’t concentrate…juz spent 2 hrs staring at the 214 teknosport case, tinking how to write the sensitive message…haiz…now I staring at the 202 case my group discussing tmr...staring but still on the same page…haiz…

Life suxs lar…nono, I’m the one who suxs…

Liddat how to survive when graduate…haiz…future’s bleak…highly irritated low mood….booooooooooooooooo….

Doomed already larrr.....

No way near completion for tmr's project and tutorial case discussion.....shucks....

Yay!~ It’s Recess Week!! =)

But then again, there’s so many projects to deal with!! =S

Yest had 2.4km evaluation. The team’s improvement is really wow!! Almost everyone was running under slightly over 12 mins. It’s not only a few individuals, but really the whole team has improved a lot except for only a few, like 3 pple only!!

Not as smooth as the last evaluation for me though. Timing was ok, but still worse than the previous evaluation by around 20 seconds. I was practically trying to catch my breath throughout the run!! Arggghhh, it was quite a painful run!! I dunnoe why…but even only at the middle of the first round, I already started being very breathless and panting madly ….was quite irritated by my own breathing, but couldn’t control it!!!....maybe because it’s been a long time since I went ost running….better start running more!!

Rejected……

I didn’t get INSTEP =(



Sad…

I wanna go exchange!! Only hope left is GIP. Please please…….

Still typing the GIP application. Arghh....struggling to write the about myself essay....Shucks, i dunnoe....what do i realli noe abt myself tt is not negative?? argghhhhhhhhhhhh.......helpsssssss.......

I am always sleepy, can sleep anywhere, anytime....I like to cycle, like to travel, like to go for camps, like to explore new places, like to exercise....I like to go through challenges, and experience the satisfaction of achievement from overcoming challenges......I'm not very patient, get bored easily....I suck at communications, usually can't think of what to say, and I especially sux at consoling pple....I like to be alone at times, but I like being around people also...I used to be a perfectionist, used to be very motivated, used to chiong for everything, used to like being very meticulous, but i'm getting worse and worse.....arggghhhh.....wad to write man!?!?

Feels so nice to have the afternoon freeeee!!! Yay!~ Loves wed afternoons, that’s if there’s no project meeting…..

Screwed my 205 quiz….=(….Actually risk is really quite an interesting subject, and I want to do internship related to risk advisory work….BUT lacking motivation to study….last nite fell asleep after training, even before 1am…argghhhhhh…..so I spent like onli 2 hours this morn trying to study before class….Dun even think I can pass the freaking quiz =(

Feel like there’s suddenly so much things to do…201 and 202 project recently released…presentations and stuff coming up….arrrghhhhh…..gd thing next week is recess wk!!!

Hate to have face-to-face project meetings after training!!! Must be on both sat & sun somemore…Arggghhhhh.....Always feel like zzzzz after weekend training. Think its becoz of the sun. Can even doze off while reading the newspapers or using the com after training, and my dad always like to tease me for that…….booooooo……dun wan haf project meeting after training…..dunwandunwandunwandunwandunwandunwan

2.4km evaluation tmr!! Sooooo deaddd....Haven't been running much these days...stamina really dropped a lot liao....shall aim 2 min per round....hopefully can last, arghhh realli hopefully...shucks, so unprepared....

TGIF!! Its been one long week….

Sleep is such a precious thing. Been deprived of sleep this whole week. And sleeping throughout almost all my lessons =(

Last sun whole nite spent chioning BF307 graded assignment, but still couldn’t finish on time. Had to forego Shangri-La lunch buffet on Mon, booooooo, the yummy sushi. Mon nite fell asleep from 7pm to 7am, hahax, I woke up in a shock, wanted to run wif teddy but didn’t hear the alarm at 10pm. Tue nite busy wif NAF preparations, but still managed to sleep 4 hrs before doing morning duty. Wed nite spent doing naf decorations, actually I wanted to and really needed to do my presentations and tutorials, but haiz. Anws I survived 41 hours without sleep, but actually I felt rather awake, except during lessons. Went out for nice dinner with the team just outside school, and got back quite late and straight away knocked out, lucky teddy gave me morning call on Fri, so could finally sleep peacefully on Thur nite without having to worry that I might miss the alarm.

Realised that I haven’t blogged about my CNY celebrations yet. Fun-filled 4 days, despite worrying for BF307 graded assignment. Reunion dinner this year was quiet, no nana, no uncles & cousins, I soooo miss those days of large family gathering, it’ll never be the same again, will it?

During cny break, I watched the whole 6 discs of Twenty-four, nice movie!! I like action-packed, mysterious, detectives-like, and war- like movies.

Went out cycling twice. Cycled to west coast park and my dad found this nice spot near the shore, where can see all the small boats parked, and hear the waves =) Riding on our bikes, we bought mac ice-cream using drive-thru =) Sat afternoon, went out cycling again to pandan reservoir and jurong east.

This year collected a lot of Hongbaos!!

Visiting only began on Sat, went to uncle kim’s house. Huimin’s son is really damn heavy. He’s only 18mths but already 14kg, I was a bit struggling to carry him =X…

Sun was one full day of visiting. In the morning, went to lao yi’s place, i.e. my mum’s ahyi’s place, saw ah gong and ah ma and my ahyis and cousins who I see only once a year. Gu gu, so so and da so so came in the afternoon. My sis and I managed to persuade da so so to bring us to visit nana!!! So happy!!! Nana, I really missed you. You are the person I respect and love most. No one can ever replace you in my heart. It was such a great relief to see my nana. I hope you can be happy. I really want to visit nana every weekend, but trainings, projects and schwork is really tying me down. =(

I’m lagging so much in my school work and projects…So much that I dunnoe where to even start =( Next week, got 205 quiz, 205 project interview, 214 quiz, 202 project discussion, 213 project interview. Shall get started with my overdue 213 assigment now, supposed to submit this morning, but…. Okaes, I better stop blogging & start 213 assignment now!!! I will complete and submit by tonight!!

Reminder to self:
Things to do this weekend (in order of importance) –> GIP application, 213 project, 202 project, 205 project………..


haiz, I feel so screwed up…..

I should just shut up and stay away don’t feel like dealing with it trying to ignore it but can’t going back

I wanna go home now!!! Waiting & waiting for my mum to come pick me frm hall….

I woke up at 11.30am just now….hahax….I’m such a pig…But so long nv sleep until so shuang already...

Finally folded my clothes neatly and put them all nicely into the cupboard. =) Now my hall room is super neat, only thing left is the dusty floor. But I’m too lazy to mop it, especially when my upper body is aching frm yest training…too long nv do canoe twist and the 2 mins stations…

Last night, went for naf meeting. Sighs…I’ll survive nxt week, somehow...At least angela was kind enough to allow me to go for thur lessons...shhhhhh...supposed to be compulsory muz pon lesson...main duty suppose to be at 12.30 but 228a not allowed to pon any lessons, and muz wear formal also...I dun mind doing overnight duty instead...

Have been in a holiday mood ever since the cancellation of 201 quiz yesterday. All I’ve been thinking of is playing and having fun during this 4 day cny holiday…I wanna go madness cycling, like cycle 2-3 times a day, cycle far far!! (My parents dun allow me to go nite cycling wif qianyi & taychuan! Argh!! I wan gooo!!) I also wanna go running wif my tiga doggie, time to make him and I lose weight!!

But there is still the BF307 maddness to do...need to submit at least 20 pgs of handwritten summary per chapter, for 6 chaps on mon!! Crap lar, I haven’t even done 1 pg of summary yet…20 * 6 = 120 pgs over 4 days…Argh!!!

Still waiting & waiting for my mum to come pick me!!!....Borredddd & hungrryyyy!!!

~ Happy Chinese New Year to All!!! ~

201 quiz postponed!!~ Yay!!~ Am soooo relieved that 201 quiz has been postponed!! =) Apparently there was double booking of the LT, and there was another class having lecture. Isn’t such booking of LT very standardized every semester? And shouldn’t such bookings have already been made at the beginning of the semester? Oh wells, I glad there was a clash of venue, so that 201 quiz can be postponed. Only started piaing 201 last nite, without having previously read nor done the tutorials. Was really in battle zone mode frm 7.30-9.30pm last night, which was quite funny at hindsight, probably the most serious studying time I had since the start of this semester, but still have lotsa stuff haven’t read and understand yet.

Finally bought the slippers that I have been long eyeing for!! Looks very comfy, but it gives me blisters. I got fat feet, argh! =( Maybe my feet just some time to adjust to the shoes and the shoes need some time to be seasoned. Now I can don’t always have to wear shoes to sch already! Yay!~

I’ve long given up the hope of being able to row in THE boat, for my strokes are really very bad and the no. of mistakes with my stroke is just too many to list. All I aim for is to improve my stroke and to be able to get to row and fight with the team in any race, and not always be a reserve and on-looker on the shore. But thanks pang and teddy for having so much faith in me. I really wanna row well to get to row in the finals of any race with the team. Would really like to aim for 1 medal this sem, even just one will do, any colour will do. That’s how desperate I am! I just wanna be able to keep a medal from DB. And this sem may well be my last sem in DB, if can get GIP, which I really hope I can get GIP.

Okaes…better stop blogging already and do smth constructive.

Quite a while since I last blogged. And it’s the end of wk 4 already!! The past 2 wks have been very sucky, especially dealing with 205 project. Lesson learnt, always do extensive research and prepare our strategy professionally before going down to the host organization. The most traumatizing experience for me and my group! But we deserved it, given the minimal effort we put into our 205 project.

Tmr my group is gg to another host organization for our 213 project. Hope it goes well.

Many presentations this semester, making me kinda depressed too. I realli sux big time at presentations. 307 presentation, got interrupted at almost every sentence I said. I do have the habit of always ensuring that ppt slides are properly done. In fact, I like to always keep adjust the fonts, custom animations, background, etc. to fine tune the ppt slides. But still, yupz I agree that its negligence on my part, could have done paid more attention to certain areas that I overlooked. It’s just that the outcome does not justify the efforts. I needa be more open-minded, learn from and not get upset by mistakes.

214 presentation is my greatest nightmare. Even the tutor can shake head while listening to my presentation, sighs… Its not so bad if the only problem is with eye contact, hand gestures, or tone of voice, as those are ways to further improve presentations. But, what’s worse is that I don’t even meet the basic criteria of delivering a speech with reasonably ok content and having sentences which flow reasonably smoothly. I can’t even stand watching myself in the recorded presentation. Wad is happening, at least I was ok during 114, but now after 1 year, I’m such a failure at presentations….I so fear gg for 214….

I noe pple ard me are being irritated by me, or starting to detest me. I am not shirking responsibility ok. I don’t like shirking responsibility and most of the time, I’d gladly do more than I’m supposed to. I don’t seek your understanding, say or tink wadever you want, for I would feel the same way too from your point of view. It’s my fault for not managing my time well. But I just thought you would be a bit more understanding. I will and am trying to manage it, and I am trying to make up for it. Am I really such a detestable person….

Todae, I finally did spring cleaning of my hall room. Finally sorted out the huge messy pile of notes, tutorials and rubbish papers! At least now I don’t needa dig for my notes before every lesson. A neat and clean table & room, does indeed brighten up one’s mood.

What’s done is over. Let’s work towards a better tomorrow. You can and you must….

Current mood: Worried for 213 project, 205 project, 201 quiz and **** ********.

Nitex.

It’s the end of week 2 already! Soooo fast!

I’m feeling so screwed. Everything’s just so messed up. And I overslept this morn, woke up in a shock at 10am, missing my 214 class. Haiz, 2nd time major oversleep. I seriously did not hear my 2 alarms, I didn’t even haf the slightest feel that I might oversleep, if not I would have asked my mum to give me morning call. So feel like slapping myself, woke up having a shock of my life, how I wanted to rewind the clock but wads done is done, felt so lost, dunnoe wad to do.

Haven’t been doing my tutorials nor paying attention during classes. It’s not that I dun wanna do it, I realli wanna, but I do it too slowly, wasting time in between. Sucky time management. Time to wake up my idea! So many things undone, I dunnoe where to start. Maybe by doing my tutorials would be a gd start.

Nanyang Arts Festival opening ceremony this wk on wed & thur. The committee’s a fun grp of pple, esp the biz mags which I work closer with. Despite the tiring days & the onli 1 hr sleep on wed nite, I did haf fun helping to prepare for the event. I feel the programmes for wed was very well done, managing to capture quite a sizeable audience. The onli pity was the lack of publicity. But all in all, it was a great success! If I had the time, I would like to try out being a programmer, which I tink will be much more fun experience, but a pity, time does not permit.

Mix training tmr at 9am. Better be off to zzzzz. And this time, I asked teddy to give me morning call, juz in case.

I want to sort out the mess!

Have been rather sleepy lately. These day, have been surrendering to sleep at only 11 plus. And I just had a 3 hours nap after training juz now.

Todae’s training was rather sucky. Realli gotta thank my right side yingying for that reassuring hand and smiles. And also thanks emily (who was sitting behind me) for her encouragement. Couldn’t help it, I just felt so useless, I never felt so emo before during training. I’m trying hard to shadow infront, to row faster, but still I really couldn’t bring up the pace, my rowing suxs big time. And thur training, I couldn’t complete even 1 set of 12 clean & jerk with the 10kg weight without support, so shitty. May tmr’s training be a better one.

Removed stitches this morning. It was bearable, the wound kinda felt weird for a while after removing the stitches, but after a while it’s ok.

And so I finally went for training today! No swimming todae, yay!~ First run in the past 2 weeks. It was ok, except my knees cui-ed for the open-up at the end. Sometimes I find it easier to run after a long break from running, its weird, but haf felt that way many times already.

My studies are a mess now! And so is my hall room! My hall room mirrors my study life to quite a large extent. When once in a blue moon, my hall room is neat, it would be the time when my studies are more or less on schedule. But now, my hall room is in a huge mess and so are my studies. This is only week 1!! And the 2nd day of sch!

Time to get started with AB214 writing pre-test now!! Just released at 5.30pm today but haf to hand in by tmr 5.30pm!

Time to sort out the mess!!

1st day of sch todae…Monday is my 2nd most slackest day and the only day with a 4 hr break in between…2 lessons todae, AA205 & BF307…

205 sounds rather scary with the very impt iCEE project & even the prof said that 205 is a tough subj…I think I’m taking a huge risk, taking 205 & 202 concurrently, especially since 205 uses quite a lot of 202 concepts…but no choice, gotta stick to this plan if I wanna apply for GIP…at least gekling’s taking 205 & in the same class, but diff project grp….& liting lent me her 205 and 202 notes…perhaps it’ll be ok…

307 sounds even more scary…the prof was trying to make us drop 307, haas…but wad the prof said does make lotsa sense, 307 is definitely NOT a subj tt can slack & resort to last min work…in fact, lotsa time gotta be devoted before every 307 seminar…but I decided to take 307 liao, since I also quite like derivatives & both belinda and ye en also recommend…decided & shall move on frm here…

Removing stitches tmr at 8am….hopefully it won’t hurt, don’t think it will….but still the phobia exists…

Not again. It still comes even when I haven’t been training for almost 2 weeks already! And now it moves to the right side also. Realli dunnoe wad's causing it this time. The onli heavier things I’ve carried during these few days is the 6 tins of eggrolls, and the 4 textbooks, which is not really heavy to anyone. Why are my shoulders even lousier than normal pple who don’t exercise?? I’d rather it be muscle ache, tt’s more normal….but its not muscle aching, its hard to explain either….Freaking lousy shoulders, can’t u juz be a lil stronger for 1 more sem….arrghhh…after so many years still liddat, I tink its gg to stay forever, even when i dun row boat…its all the sec3 obs round-ubin kayaking & super heavy obs backpack fault!....booooo....

Sch’s starting in 2 days time!

I’m still in the lazy ‘dun feel like doing anything at all’ mood….lazing around the house, either watching TV or sleeping. It’s high time to start adjusting back to sch life. Time to start waking up early & stop taking naps during the day. 1st lesson on mon at 8.30am!

Been procrastinating a lot these days, & I gotta kick this old habit…For my new year resolution is to avoid last minute work….So today, I must finish up my resume & submit it by today! Been delaying it for weeks, ever since exams ended until now….the 7 Jan deadline is nearing, & today I must be done with it!

Good-bye 2007, welcome 2008! A fresh new start! =)

2007 did not start off wif a gd first half for me….yr 1 sem 2 was my worst semester, pulling down my gpa quite badly…internship at KPMG was one big big disaster, receiving terribly lousy appraisals of which all point to far far under performance which was a big shock & big wake-up call to me….

Fortunately 2007 did end on a much better note….yr 2 sem 1 was not an easy sem, with overload to 27aus, but thankfully it was also my best semester…

My 2007 resolutions were to:

1. Study hard consistently, avoid last minute work & aim for BnF 2nd spec…..This I feel I have not really achieved, haf not managed to kick off my bad habit, yr 2 sem1 was full of last minute work & getting BnF 2nd spec was more due to my A level results rather than my gpa.

2. Train hard for db….which I feel still needs much more determination, after 1.5 yrs in db, I still can’t row with the proper technique…

3. Practice seriously for golf & get my PC by Jul & handicap by Dec….this is not at all achieved, for I have stopped my sun afternoon golf lessons since the start of 2007 & I do not recall playing any golf during the whole of 2007…its quite a waste coz come jul 2008, I will never get to use the club under my dad’s membership anymore…

4. Run StanChart Half Marathon non-stop within 2.5hrs…it was quite a lot of long distance running for the 2nd half of 2007…mizuno run wif my bro though onli 10km was ultimate cui…but managed army half marathon in abt 2hr 27mins…& almost 6hrs for StandChart Full Marathon…thks to db teammates, would not haf survived these runs without them…

5. Blog everyday….I shall need to blog more often…I feel blogging helps reflect on wad u haf done for the day, which helps curb wasting time & procastination….

The chapter for 2007 has closed…And a new chapter has just began for 2008…

For 2008, here goes my new year resolutions (in order of importance)

1. Study hard consistently, do tutorials on time, pay attention in class, no more last minute work…Take more interest in studies, find back that drive & motivation to strive for first class honours (which seems still so far far away)….& Aim for internship at E & Y as well as Aim for GIP China in year 3 Sem 1.

2. Train hard for Dragonboat…watch that punching arm, keep it straight….excute full stroke, twist body at the end, to keep punching arm straight….watch that recovery, use top arm and not pulling arm….& Aim for 1 medal…I tink I’m the onli one in my batch who hasn’t rowed in a finals that haf won a medal b4….If I can get GIP China, this will be my last sem in DB, make it a good one.

3. Blog everyday….live everyday to the fullest!

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year! Happy 2008! =) Let 2008 be an even better yr!

Long time since I last blogged. This is gonna be a super long post….since I am damn bored now, everyone else is at training camp…boooo….

Finally removed the mole that has been causing abrasion while rowing and even while running. It took 2 injections and 2 stitches on 27th Dec. And I was damn brave, I didn’t cry…I think I’ve sorta overcomed my phobia for needles at that moment. So its 10 days (damn long!) before the stitches can be removed and 2 weeks of no exercise-_-...the doc asked me if i needed mc, but i said no need, now sch hols mah...but my sis said shd haf juz gotten it, maybe it'll be fun to see how it looks like, nv gotten an mc b4 & i wanna keep my record tt way.....

no whole family holiday trips ever since uni started, not expecting any more forever, though I still look back fondly at those wonderful overseas holiday we used to haf…

Maybe its juz age that is catching up….Christmas no longer means much…Christmas this year was much much quieter, my cousins, uncles, aunty, grandma were all not here, no Christmas presents under the pathetic Christmas tree, just a simple lonely quiet family dinner….

Haven't been doing much this holiday, just slacking, eating, training, sleeping and the cycle continues. Perhaps, some of the more interesting things that have happened this holiday are…

1. Completing standchart marathon in slightly less than 6hrs, timing could have been improved, but juz glad to have completed it with no prior training nor preparation. I didn’t exactly plan how to run, I was just running, then see db teammates in front, then motivation to chiong and catch up to run tgt, then pple start gg toilet, then i jog slowly alone, then see another db teammate, then chiong to catch up, then they wan go toilet again, so alone again, so it was run chiong jog run chiong jog run chiong jog, not exactly a good way to maintain stamina for a marathon, haas…but tinking back it was quite fun meeting so many db pple along the way….I started off slowly wif ye en, then met the alumnis, then sheena ask me to run with xx first while she accompany ye en, then after that sheena caught up and we ran tgt…after tt met weishan & sooshuen….then lixian & gekling…then lost sheena,, & ran alone….then met da candice & xuewei….then tay chuan & fel…then winsten…then belinda…then yunci & cuimei….then xiaohong & joleen & sharon…then ah hee…then finally after running alone for quite a few km, finally met liping & lili & teddy…liping & I walked the last few km, while teddy & lili ran off….my first and definitely last marathon, I still wan my knees and my soles which have been quite cui ever since…

2. Cycling with qian yi, tay chuan and tiga doggie on 21st Dec. The longest day cycling trip I have ever had…from 8 in the morning to 8 plus at night, but of course wif breaks in between…..Cycled from my house to meet qian yi near west coast, then cycled to vivocity to meet taychuan…then we cycled to regatta race site, it was kinda weird cycling through the city during an office day, where the atmosphere is kinda serious office working…then we cycled past kallang, to east coast, then went back to lau par sat, labrador park, west coast park, pandan reservoir and finally seeking shelter from the rain at jurong east before heading back home….i wonder how many km we cycled…but it was fun, cycle until shuang, but also cycle until butt ache…haas…

3. Rockclimbing at Yishun Safra on 26th Dec with tay chuan, candice, soo shuen, qianyi, wanxian & nicole…first time tt really rockclimb such a high wall, & it was fun!! Rockclimbing is really tiring, climb a short distance onli, then my hands suan until cannot make it already, super cui… tink rockclimbing more effective than lifting weights, haas…. belaying was quite fun too….wanna rockclimb again soon….but probably will be many many months later, maybe after june race & PA…..

Results were out on 28th Dec, was super worried that I may even get Cs or Ds, for last sem felt like my most screwed up sem, for I nv did such last min exam studying before….for all my papers I just started studying for the exam in that 1 or 2 days before the paper, & it was a damn scary experience….but surprisingly my results were veri much opposite of wad I felt it would be, wad I though had chance of doing well, turn out not to…wad I thought was screwed, turned out ok….except for investments which I really screwed both the exam paper & the coursework also, so undoubtedly investments was my worst subject, investments was really a disappointment, it was my fav subj yet my worst scoring subj, coz I din do the tutorials! Argh!…thankfully, my results were ok, great relief…I really gotta study harder and more consistenly nxt sem, its gonna be yet another challenging sem, and I really wanna go for GIP China in yr 3 sem 1, so jiayous for nxt sem!

Scared…

The time has come once again…

And I’m feeling so unprepared….

I haven even read most of the lecture notes…..haven done majority of the tutorials….

Pls pls let all these turn out well…

Pls time slow down….

Scared….

Regatta’s over….

Women’s open was quite cui…keep getting backwash…1 stroke water high, nxt stroke water low, and the cycle keeps repeating….row until quite pek chek, coz keep cannot zua shui…budden those on the shore said the starts was quite gd, but lost out during maintanence….hmmmm….I felt it was a total screw up set…

Mixed was quite nice I felt, coz I managed to pull water better than during women’s open….but I felt the boat was very panicky…maybe coz its all junior guys….they were like shouting panicky during load up and charging…and there was no communication in the boat, except during the heats when everyone was calmer….

We got into mix plate finals which came as a shock to all of us....din even know it until they were launching for the race, so we went down without warming up…despite the still panic mode in the boat and the poor communication, I still felt rowing mix was much better than women’s open…am more conscious of my stroke, of stretching forward for pointer 3, of twisting, of forearm pulling, etc., but onli during mix….womens open is the total opposite…..sheesh, always liddat one…I gotta try to be able to pull water during women’s small boat, gotta try to be able to pull water when the water’s heavy…

Race over, new appointment holders chosen…congrats chuanz, ash & jane =)….time to build a new, stronger team…looking forward to penang….

But for now its time to battle the exams…7 days left onli!!! Time pls pls sloowww down….sooooooooo deaddd…..

Finally, its fri afternoon!

Hectic wk has come to an end…Investment presentation by other grps in class were interesting & funny! haas....but our presentation paled in comparision to the others....1st & onli formal presentation this sem, Tiffany case presentation was not gd, hope we won't get too lousy a grade, still gt the freaking report to deal wif when i have had enuf of TIffany case...

River regatta this wkend! Smth exciting to look forward to. This year feels different coz we are more prepared for river regatta. It feels different for me too coz I’m sitting so in front, like 2nd seat, not the usual last seat which I’m used to. Dun wanna tink much, just stay focus and row, feel every stroke.

12 days to 1st paper & I haven started studying for exams…..1 investment quiz & 1 finance report more to go….scary….

One by one…from now till mon, I shall juz focus on studying for investment quiz, argh, minus out race time & post race dinner, there ain’t much time....but sometimes, its during times of urgency that tings gets done better...

Actually this sem, I’m thankful to have nice frens in investment and acc II tutorials….& I realize there are quite many crescentians in nbs….

nana & soso moved out?!!! Why doesn’t anyone tell me wad is gg on at home???

Hse is quieter….i miss nana…it feels weird not seeing nana at home….when will I get to see u again??

Nana always asks me abt sch, abt trainings…..sch suxs!! Especially todae….i can’t let my parents noe how screwed up I was todae….I would get killed…but I can tok to nana abt this….but where are u nana?? I miss u….

I sux big time! I am a total screw up!

How could u do such a thing?! Sleep sleep sleep, is slp tt impt? U wan to slp all ure life away then u happy issit??

U dun always get wad u wan in life...There's no second chance in life...Its ure own fault tt it's screwed up...its ure own responsibility....Dun expect others to give u another chance...No use crying...u juz suck...ought not to exist on this earth....

Feel stupid, study for tax quiz, but couldn't take it coz i overslept...stupid screwed up...luckily prof allowed 10% quiz weightage to transfer to exams, but then again i studied for the quiz, and it was an easier quiz, wad if i screw up my final exam...sighs...

Juz wanna pass the ethics quiz for now....stop screwing up everything!!

I got D for maths quiz =((((((( Damn sad.....

Haiz…D for 10% of final grades…how sucky…tink I got last in class…see so many pple get A+….haiz….

Lacking sleep…been staying up, but not effective doing work or studying…end up damn sleepy during the day…ineffectiveness throughout the day…tink I’m better off sleeping not too late and try to be more effective study in less time…

Training is always a gd break frm studies…forget those troubles & worries during training...feel more motivated to study after training also…but it lasts also a while b4 tiredness settles in…

Nite sea rowing todae...nice nice…always liked nite rowing…but keep getting breathless…shucks, tink my stamina has deteriorated…muz be coz these days nv realli run le…the run during tue training, felt damn breathless too…

Back to tax…wasted enuf time…study effectively or else no point staying up …

Quite some time since I last updated…

Was busy wif accounting II report & maths quiz last wk….haiz…screw the maths quiz…cannot even pass…I can’t believe I forgt a simple differentiation and as such din even get any method marks for the 2nd qn...and yar, there’s onli 2 qns, of which the 2nd qn has more than 50% weightage….sighs…bye to 10% of final grades...the result of last min chionging, zzzz in class, not doing tuts…

This wk is relatively slack…except for sat…its gonna be a hectic day…tax quiz at 7.30am!!! Followed by ethics seminar n quiz till 2.30pm…I dunnoe if I should take the ethics quiz nxt sem…or shd I opt not to take the tax quiz and transfer the 10% weightage to the final exam…both choices are risky!! Haven started studying for tax, yet I doubt I much preparation for tax exam either…shall decide ltr…

Next wk’s gonna be a killer!! 2 presentations, 2 reports, 2 quizzes…I dare not tink how it’ll turn out…

Smth to look forward to nxt weekend….river regatta…I hope I can row a good set…left shoulder pls bear wif me…

Ohhh…& I realized I sweat damn easily, do 2min station fly or even squats also can sweat…sweat a lot too…grosssss….

Why take it up in the first place…& not manage it properly…onli to regret now…yet still not putting in extra effort to make up for it…wads the use of panicking…if u realli are panicking, u shdn’t be dozing off in class…yar, I’m damn scared for the exams…but haf I started?? no way, far far far frm started…so wad on earth am I doing now?….i’m so screwed…2.5 wks to my first paper which I noe nth abt…pls do smth abt it…now!!

Wooohoooo!! No more lessons for the wkk!! Ahhhh, sooo happy sooo relieved…

Finally got myself to do investment quiz last nite after training. Inertia to click the start button for the online quiz. Kept hovering around ehhh I’m not prepared to take it now, its soo late not good time to do quiz, then aiya juz do it now!! Or else tmr cannot go bbq! Many many thanks to kaixiang for helping me out wif some of the qns!! :)

Soooo don’t feel like doing any work now, although there are realli many things that need to be done: accounting II project, bf322 case, maths quiz, investment project, and the 5 elearning lects tt I haf yet to listen!!!

Oh wells, I need a break now!! I juz wanna do some exercise now!! Surprisingly sooo many pple wanted to run this wk but I din join any at all!! I wanna run now! Wanna play frisbee later! Come 5pm quick!!

2 down!!

Had spent the week getting frustrated over company law report, when I thought I finally understood, the next moment I realize I still don’t, and so its been back to square one many times throughout the week. Had enuf of co. law, glad to be done wif it! Hoping it won’t be graded too lousy a report, hopefully the grade won’t turn out to be like biz law report last sem which totally sucked. 20% of final grade…

Accounting quiz plus excel quiz this morning. Din really prepare for this. After finishing co. law report, juz wanted to sleep and totally no mood to study anymore. So many of those ethics qns come out, argh, hate this kind of ambiguous stuff…the mistakes I made probably all came from those ethics qns…then came the excel quiz, which was total gone case...no time, plus excel spreadsheet was a total mess, plus classified some costs wrong, argh…excel quiz confirm fail le…sighs…20% of final grade too…

Went to the gym wif my bro, my strength these days are seriously cui…tue training, the sand bottles felt super heavy, even 2 mins felt like forever…thur training, now 10kg also struggling…sheesh…

Next week gonna be project week! Mon gt tax presentation discussion plus corporate finance case discussion…Tue gt accounting project meeting…which I haven started preparing for…oops…then also got investment quiz…n investment project, which relatively not as urgent….

1 mth to the exams…sooo fast…barely managing to even deal with the presentations, projects n quizzes on hand now…argh!