Quite a while since I last blogged. And it’s the end of wk 4 already!! The past 2 wks have been very sucky, especially dealing with 205 project. Lesson learnt, always do extensive research and prepare our strategy professionally before going down to the host organization. The most traumatizing experience for me and my group! But we deserved it, given the minimal effort we put into our 205 project.

Tmr my group is gg to another host organization for our 213 project. Hope it goes well.

Many presentations this semester, making me kinda depressed too. I realli sux big time at presentations. 307 presentation, got interrupted at almost every sentence I said. I do have the habit of always ensuring that ppt slides are properly done. In fact, I like to always keep adjust the fonts, custom animations, background, etc. to fine tune the ppt slides. But still, yupz I agree that its negligence on my part, could have done paid more attention to certain areas that I overlooked. It’s just that the outcome does not justify the efforts. I needa be more open-minded, learn from and not get upset by mistakes.

214 presentation is my greatest nightmare. Even the tutor can shake head while listening to my presentation, sighs… Its not so bad if the only problem is with eye contact, hand gestures, or tone of voice, as those are ways to further improve presentations. But, what’s worse is that I don’t even meet the basic criteria of delivering a speech with reasonably ok content and having sentences which flow reasonably smoothly. I can’t even stand watching myself in the recorded presentation. Wad is happening, at least I was ok during 114, but now after 1 year, I’m such a failure at presentations….I so fear gg for 214….

I noe pple ard me are being irritated by me, or starting to detest me. I am not shirking responsibility ok. I don’t like shirking responsibility and most of the time, I’d gladly do more than I’m supposed to. I don’t seek your understanding, say or tink wadever you want, for I would feel the same way too from your point of view. It’s my fault for not managing my time well. But I just thought you would be a bit more understanding. I will and am trying to manage it, and I am trying to make up for it. Am I really such a detestable person….

Todae, I finally did spring cleaning of my hall room. Finally sorted out the huge messy pile of notes, tutorials and rubbish papers! At least now I don’t needa dig for my notes before every lesson. A neat and clean table & room, does indeed brighten up one’s mood.

What’s done is over. Let’s work towards a better tomorrow. You can and you must….

Current mood: Worried for 213 project, 205 project, 201 quiz and **** ********.

Nitex.