Thinking abt something that my bro said last week. He was telling my mum that he is in his school team for table tennis even though his attendance was not that good. But, another table tennis player who had 100% attendance and whose skills had improved greatly was not selected for the school team. Then my bro was saying that he got talent unlike the other guy.

No matter what, ultimately it is how u can perform that is the most crucial part. But if u didn’t fight hard for it, the chance won’t even exist. Everyone started from scratch, so the only difference is the effort put in.

I noe for sure there’s no way I’ll get to row for PM cup. My technique sucks, recovery sucks, scope water sucks, slide water also sucks, power dun even need to mention. My rowing really is bad, still splashing water even after almost 5 months already.

Sigh, please please stop bothering abt the muscle ache, stop thinking when will 120 strokes end, stop anticipating when will 30mins end, juz stop it! and focus! train seriously! If I don’t start putting in more effort, I’ll end up being a reserve again, standing alone on the shore watching the others fight for the medal. I'm not aiming for a chance to row in PM cup (tt will be too optimistic and I shan't deceive myself) but at least a chance to row in any other race.

Remember wad u promised yourself during penang race. That has been & is still All talk but NO action yet!!

Studies in a mess, rowing is a disaster, golfing is a disappointment. What am I doing?!