Survived Army Half Marathon! 21km! Ye en stayed over at my hall, fortunately, if not I wouldn’t haf woken up in time. We set off from school at about 5am coz the bus driver was late & he still keep complaining abt us…dots...

Running in the wee hours of the morning, as though the whole road belongs to us! =) Fun! Running wif the team more fun, different experience from standchart & mizuno run, budden i can't realli click wif them...k lar, i can't click well wif pple in general...change topic..

Kept wanting to go toilet during the first few km (super irritating!), but finally had toilet break at abt 10km. Actually 21km din seem so scary afterall, glad to haf completed it, though I muz say kinda disappointed wif my endurance & stamina, & most importantly attitude….Din stop except for toilet break, budden was a bit lagging behind liping(whose leg was injured) even though I was perfectly ok. Din give 100%, din push to the max, but gave in to slight tiredness, allowed myself to lag a bit for most of the time, even though it onli takes a bit more effort to keep up wif the pace…No wonder I always ganna reserve for races…wake up! Where’s that fighting spirit & attitude (to both training & studies)…

Super accident-prone! Fell while walking down the slope near hall 1 on sun nite. Fell infront of my parents…super maloo..

I’m super lousy at pain endurance. Pple can run wif a torn ligament, hurting sheen, etc. Physically disabled pple can row dragonboat. Wat am I to complain abt a small cut (at a super wrong position though). Freaking foot…stop it!! STOP IT!!

lousy mood....

SBG meeting at pasir ris early morn, prevented me from enjoying the much-awaited once a wk long nice sleep. Argh, haven been keeping up my promise. Negative thoughts…hmm, pretty frequent. Improving communication with pple…hmmm, still suxs big time. I’m really in a big mess now, & its snowballing fast, even though its onli starting wk 3 now…But I’ll clear the mess by this sat. Must!

Went for this curl event for hearing impaired & some physically disabled pple to participate in a dragonboat race. Some of them had to be carried out of the dragonboat into their wheelchairs. Realli pei fu this kind of pple, the courage they haf in life, E + R = O.

Mum’s back from hospital, had an operation to remove cis from thyroid gland. But still got some cis in the remaining thyroid gland, cannot remove all otherwise haf to be on medication for life. Hopefully with exercise, the remaining cis will not grow.

Went to watch fireworks at nite, nice! Much better than I expected, though cannot be compared to disneyland’s fireworks.

Almost dieded during BF322 class…freaking cramps was killing me…felt like the longest 3 hrs in my life… every min was like taking forever to pass by… fortunately the tutor ended like 10mins earlier…

Why do women haf to suffer from cramps? This is sooooo unfair….I rather be forced to go ns than suffer from cramps...Not fair!!

Btw, I finally managed to add Genes r Us. Like finally! Although forensic science definitely more fun, but since it is impossible to take it, so take genes r us still better than nothing. Anyway exam all mcq! nice…

The pace of teaching for BF212 realli quite fast. The tutor spoke non-stop, like no time to process anything…When I’m thinking about wad he juz said, he would haf already moved on to something else…information overload. But not his fault, really a lot of things to cover…though mostly jc maths stuff, I forgotten most of them le…

Been trying to play catch-up this whole week & it sucks…its onli the 2nd week & already my last minute chiong habit for tutorials never change…argh, time management arrrr…stop wasting time…ok, stop blogging…

BF322 can really drive me nutssss…

Suay day…sigh…

See vacancy for PE BS801, BUT cannot freaking add the subj…why? Coz the stupid stars system & overload request system restrict me to only overload 1 particular subject, which I chose CBC811….stupid system…

Then open ntu email, see the email on rejection on appeal case to add CBC811….dots…onli managed to submit appeal on the 2nd day, coz the freaking system screw up, 1st day couldn’t enter the appeal system…

So end up, cannot clear PE this sem…let’s see how I gg to manage nxt sem man…bless me luck…

Super fed up wif all these systems!!!!

On hindsight, I have a solution now! Argh, but its too late le, din tink of it juz now. Shd haf drop BF322, & add BS801 so I won’t exceed the max aus, plus since BF322 got so many vacancies no one want, I can juz send email to request to overload BF322 which most prob will be allowed…..silly me…nv tink of this earlier….haiz….

Attended CBC811 Forensci Sci lecture todae...juz trying my luck in appealing...So interesting lor…talk abt how to detect if there was blood (the pink test, dunno call wad, like the one they show on CSI), analyzing blood splatter patterns, analyzing the substances like bullet fragments, etc…haiz, I like leh…CSI is like one of my few favourite tv shows...but cannot take le….yr 3 sem 1 also no chance le, wan go for GIP....sad….

Sitting through CBC811, like having chem n bio lessons, like so much more interesting than accounting lessons…shucks man, tink I’m in the wrong course lar…love science more than accounting…budden job wise, prefer accounting, super detest lab work, unless I can be a science teacher, which I can’t coz I can’t control a bunch of naughty kids…sigh…too late anyways….focus on accounting…anyways I like accounting too, but onli like science more…there’s no turning back though, so juz focus on accounting!

Believe that everything happens for a reason, have faith have trust, somehow the dots will connect backwards, its juz we can’t see the link from where we are now…So juz give your best in everything that happens now & trust that everything happens for a reason, everything will turn out fine…

Mole abrasion!! Cries!!

Went ost running wif some of the team, & had mole abrasion while running…like wth…running also can ganna abrasion. It was quite pain can, even my sports bra also got blood (though din realize it until I bathe).

Last sat while doing twisting accidentally ganna mole abrasion. Thus, the current state of painful mole abrasion even while running. All these problems coz I haf a freaking mole out of nowhere, like not below or above the sports bra, like in some awkward position that gives me abrasion during twisting…like the strip cutting the mole…like ouch!!

Looks like really gotta remove the mole…but I scared leh. The doctor say muz cut it out (like pain!!...not use laser leh) & then stitch it!!!! (like more pain!!!!) & then muz remove the stitch (like also pain!!!) No way man!! But looks like now really no choice le…cries…helps…Anyways, I delayed it to 27 dec…hahax…the later the better…mouse is freaking scared of pain…

Happie 42th Birthdae Singapore! I’m really grateful to be born in Singapore, where there is peace, stability, security, opportunities, & a thriving economy…

Cycled to McRitchie under the blazing hot noon sun. Why? Coz no one wanna cyle in the morn! Argh! So angry can! Always liddat one! So in the end, onli my dad, me & tiga doggie went cycling…

Cycling to McRitchie is quite a hassle coz of the PIE & all the pie exits, with no traffic lights at the pie exits, had to wait insanely long for there to be finally no cars turning into the exit, & then chiong across the road, like super dangerous n scary.

Then from PIE to McRitchie got long (really long) stretches of upslope and downslope. Obviously my dad doesn’t wait for me, he juz chiong up the slopes…zzz…& my legs are like super suan todae, tink coz of the sprinting on tues training, plus the tiga doggie must haf put on some weight, super fat heavy dog juz sit in the basket n add to my difficulty.

When it is finally downslope, my dad would zoom down faster than me since he is heavier. So instead of I can finally catch my breadth & enjoy the wind while going downslope, I had to cycle faster to try to keep up wif my dad, otherwise the gap will juz widen with the next upslope. Faints…it was quite tiring…todae like cannot realli move fast, legs keep suaning…

But it was really fun!! Cycling always makes my day! Recharged & ready for sch tmr…

Skin’s peeling like crazy!! noise skin, forehead skin, etc.. luckily haf fringe to cover the disgusting peeling mess on my forehead. Can’t stand it, I’m gonna peel it all off once and for all…hymph!

Todae I did a survey in sch, in return for $10 cash. Super gd deal!! Budden hor, I didn't know how to answer the qns, was smth abt company's financial situation, then there was an analyst report n i'm asked whether the analyst report is reasonable! Like HUH?! I juz anyhow answer in 2 sentences, heehee...realli dunno how to answer it...Poor professor must be regretting paying me $10 to do the survey...

Btw, overload request has been approved but its like a lil too late now…argh! There’s obviously no more vacancies for forensic sci. Even if I wanna take genes r us (which I saw more than 100 vacancies on mon), now also zero vacancies. Sigh! Looks like really gotta clear science PE next sem already. Next sem’s gonna be a real killer…I didn’t want it this way, nxt sem supposed to be less taxing to cope with training that will step up…but there ain’t much choice now…live with it, learn to adapt…

First lecture of the new semester todae. Despite my resolution to pay attention during lectures, I couldn’t battle the zzzz monster, even though I wasn’t sleepy at all. Accounting II lecture was really ultimate boring, so forgive myself.

Many many sprinting for training todae. Too long never really sprint already. Get breathless & lack of oxygen even before my legs become tired. Maybe cycling will help build stamina. =) Looking forward to cycling on thurs!

The queue at popular bookstore is insanely long cum slow. And I realized how inconvenient it is to go from hall 1 to south spine, haf to walk thru hall 5, hall 4 then reach s3. Juz to buy 2 tbs, I walked 10-15mins to popular, queued 30 mins, then walked 10-15mins back to hall 1. What a waste of time!

The sun’s a killer! Am burnt! Burnt red!

After training, went to golden mile hawker centre for lunch. Quite surprised that golden mile is soooo near kallang, abt 5-10mins onli. Somemore got quite a lot of nice food there. Ate the hokkien mee (yummy!) Oh yar, I had a huge lunch…ate 2 donuts (that lixian brought to training), 1 huge plate of hokkien mee & 1 cup of lemon lime…oops…

Kallang was unusually quiet n deserted today. Feels kinda weird. Where is everyone? Also, today’s turnout was fewer than last few trainings. All the yr 3s(going yr 4s) weren’t here, except for emily.

We went canoeing today, & it was horrible! The canoe went anyway else but straight…diaoz…Poor yy (who was partnering me & sat at the back) had a real tough time steering the direction, can tell she’s rather pissed off. If I had to keep steering the boat, I’ll be rather pissed off too. Something’s veri veri wrong wif my technique, juz couldn’t execute the canoe twisting style. Am soooo dead meat, much more canoeing to come in the nxt few wks, mths, yr….helps….

Shucks! I can see a hole in my skin coz of the cut. Pls hope the flesh will grow back. I’m a lil more concerned abt the cut coz its hurting a lil since I juz bathe. But then again, it’s a small small cut, so relax, relax, relax, no worries…

Anways, I DIN get foriensic science!! Shit man! I’m rather screwed lar, I need to clear my STS-PE this sem & I really really wanna take foriensic science! If its on a first-come-first-serve basis, I should get it mah, b4 the system open for registration I already keep clicking to make sure I’m the first few to register. Sigh, I think its coz I haven got the overload request yet, so the system would auto reject me since I already registered the max no. of aus. Stupid system lar, the overload requesting onli starts from 6 august!!! After register subjects le, then request for overload gt wad use! Wad we need is to get overload approval b4 subject registeration wad! ARGH! Stupid system!!

As I was walking towards the rear of the bus, the bus jerked forward & my knee crashed against a metal piece jutting out from the last row of seats. Just before the incident happened, I did notice the unusual metal piece jutting out. But when the bus jerked forward, it was just a reflex action to use my knee as support, preventing an unglam fall. In exchange, my poor knee has a cut!! The cuts a bit deeper into the skin than bruises, but due to the blood clots covering the cut, its hard to see how deep the cut really is. It doesn’t hurt much though, I can still run, jump, cycle. No worries, small cut onli, can’t be that deep, juz hope the flesh will grow back (It will grow back rite?), & dun leave a hole in my skin. That metal piece jutting out is sooo dangerous, imagine if a toddler crashes into it, given the toddler’s height, he might get a cut on his head or neck…

WaLau….I wanna change room!!…Guess who’s my new roomie. She’s an Indonesian, which means she’ll be in hall even on weekends, sigh…say bye to some peace on fri nite & sat morn. Kinda expected my roomie to be a foreigner though, afterall very few sporeans would have no roomie, unless they r a loner like me. But what’s worse is that she is a close fren of my ex-roomie. This is so so sooooo coincidental lar! Sigh, this is bad esp since I was on quite bad terms wif my ex-roomie. Tell me how am I gg to survive…

As for my toiletmates, they are from China. My upper sec china classmates were quite nice pple actually. Budden heard many bad things abt having China pple as toiletmates…like they won’t clean the toilet & dirty the toilet instead. Thankfully though, my new roomie said that she saw them scrubbing the toilet when they juz moved in, so I guess & please please hope that they r probably not that bad…

Haiz, I guess the library will come in very very handy for me nxt sem…bye bye comfy, relaxing, peaceful hall room….

Do u experience a short memory loss when u juz woken up? I have experienced many many times of short memory loss when I juz woke up. This morning, I woke up wondering why my maid woke me up so early….Then, it suddenly dawned onto me that I had to be in sch by 9.30am!! And I was gg to be late!!...Shucks! This is not the first or the few times that I experience a short memory loss upon juz waking up. During school time, quite frequently, when I wake up in hall I would like wonder what do I haf to do…And onli after look at my timetable b4 I remember what class I had to go for that morning. And so most of the time, I wake up in the morning feeling rather lost (even though the nite b4, I would usually tink abt what I am gg to do the nxt day). Why liddat?

Signed up for Standchart full marathon! 42.195km!! Haas, I’m insane…I’m still contemplating if I made the correct decision anot…42.195km is no joke, its scary! I hope I will be able to survive it…

I chanced upon a body fat weighing machine today. My body fat percentage is a shocking 24%!! Gosh! That’s like the upper limit of the acceptable range for women age 18-30.

I decided to do some experimenting though. When I select the option male on the weighing machine, my body fat percentage dropped to 19%! Like HUH?! Does some women body fat NOT count as fat for men?? Then I selected the option female athlete, and my body fat percentage measured 19% again! To be sure, I checked my fat percentage under the option female again and it went back up to 24%. How weird!! The body fat weighing machine cannot be trusted!!

Finally decided to get down to blogging once again since I’m super free these days. Two weeks of no work plus no training, and just plain enjoyment of life. Been rather busy for the past few months though. In fact, so many things have happened since I last updated.

What we have trained so hard for was just taken away in that few minutes on 1st july 2007. It was pain but because of this loss, I believe ntu phoenix will fight back stronger and winning the cup nxt yr will mean so much more to us. Its not over yet, its just the beginning.

Work finally ended on 6th july. Wasn’t that pleasant an experience but it was a wake up call for me. A learning experience I would say. It’s better that I experience it now than when I officially start working.

Just last week I attended a 3.5 days camp which was rather amazing and inspiring. Learnt some interesting things about taking control over my life. Experienced some stuff that made me realize the power of visualization and belief. A new beginning...

3rd consecutive training todae. Ah hee lined us up in the boat and he called my name first. My first reaction was die!!! I dun wanna be pacer! My first pacing experience was a total mess. It was during regatta last nov. First time pacing and it must be during the competition somemore, u cannot imagine how panic I was. Anyway, that was total screwup coz I didn’t follow the 30-20 strategy. I wasn’t even conscious of my strokes. I was juz struggling to keep up with the right rower pacer. We err didn’t communicate throughout the whole race, although the rest heard li si shouting and cheryl n ye en were saying the pace too fast, but I didn’t hear anything throughout the race. Felt heavy water throughout the whole race and it was juz a totally misearable rowing experience. When we crossed the finishing line, I was juz so relieved it was over. We came in one of the last or the last, can’t really remember. Anyway, that was long over. Today, pacing was not that bad coz onli paced for 1 set, then ah hee changed pacers.

Training in school todae. Running’s a bit more xiong, running up can 1 slope 3 times followed by behind src 3 times. Didn’t realized how suan my thighs were until I reached home and did some stretching. Weights training as usual. I realized how much I had dropped, or actually I realized it about a week ago, when I went to the gym below my house with my bro, and tried to lift the 10kg weights I was like wow when did 10kg become so heavy, but in front of my bro cannot too maloo lar, so I managed to do 1 set without support. 3 weeks without lifting weights has such a great difference. I still remember juz before the exams, I went with yeen to the gym for a short while and I could still do the 11kg weights with ease.

Today, we had nite training and I felt the ting which I had feared about. But maybe its juz me being too conscious and worried over it. Perhaps its not as bad as I thought it was. Anyways, I think I can still survive it.

My parents are going for the 15km runway cycling this coming 3rd Jun. boooo…I also wan go! But 3rd Jun being a Sunday, there’s bound to be training. I could make it in time since the event flags off at 8am but the real problem is fitting 3 big bicycles in the car. I wonder how we managed to fit 5 bicycles in the car last time. But that was long long time ago when we were small and our bikes were small too.

We could cycle on sat nite to the paya lebar airbase and camp there overnight before the event starts the next morn, that would be quite cool! But nah, my parents would never agree to that. Argh, spoil the fun.

It has been a long time since we went for runway cycling. The last time we went was in 2003 when I was in sec 4. That time onli my dad, bro and me went. But we used to go runway cycling as a whole family together with my dad’s friend’s family. I think the last time we did that was in 1999 when I was pri 6. That time my mum went with my bro on the leisure fun cycle 6km route and she had a fall, coz my bro was cycling quite slowly which was ok since he was onli pri 1, but tink somebody from behind wanted to overtake them and then they collided. Since then my mum kinda feared cycling but she picked it up again this year.

That particular runway cycling in 1999 was fun too coz my dad was accompanying my younger sis and my dad’s friend was accompanying his daughter and wife, so they let me and my dad’s friend’s son cycle by ourselves. When we finished the 12km route, we didn’t see many people so we thought we were supposed to go another round and so we did. So we cycled 24km in total and got scolded when we finished coz I think we were supposed to go and collect goodie bags, that’s why they let us cycle off first, but in the end we came back even later then them.

Today marks our first official training since the exams ended. Ah hee came up with some interesting stuff which we heard from those who went for mixed training last weekend. It was kinda fun I must say, and not that bad after all. But this is juz the beginning. As ah hee said, todae is considered half training onli.

Today, we went kayaking. Actually I wasn’t sure if today was the real training or own time own target kind. The message sounded like it was real training. Anyway, I misunderstood the message. Didn’t think that the 1 meant 1pm, I thought it was a typo, haas silly me. So went for kayaking instead of dragonboating. Anyway, the alumni boat didn’t haf space for anymore left rowers.

Kayaking was torturous, as I had feared. Haas, even since sec 3 obs kayaking experience, I had always been apprehensive about kayaking. During that obs experience, me and my partner could not kayak straight and we were struggling to keep up with the rest of the pack. It was quite frustrating, afterall we were from ncc leh, how come cannot even kayak faster than some of the non-sport people. But its not my partner’s fault coz after that we change partner, and me and my new partner still cannot kayak straight but my old partner could now kayak straight. It was truly miserable experience coz it was a round pulau ubin kayaking experience and we couldn’t stop. Back then, I thought it was something wrong with that particular kayak but now, having todae’s experience, I think the problem is in me. haas, cannot be every kayak I’m in got problem. But that’s not the real reason why I fear kayaking. Its something else which I shouldn’t say.

Anyway, kayaking was real tiring, partly coz we couldn’t kayak straight. Weishan and gekling are so pro, they seem to be able to kayak straight with ease. I wonder how they manage to do it. But anyway, I am not going to kayak anymore, I’d rather row dragonboat.

After kayaking, I went to suntec to attend a wine-tasting session and I won a 1.5 ltr of stoney vineyard, domain A wine! 2nd time I won a bottle of wine. The 1st time was when I was in lower sec or upper pri, and I managed to fix some puzzle at an overseas wine bar and the owner of the wine bar gave me a bottle of wine for free! I think I gave that bottle to my mum, either for her birthdae, mother’s day or Christmas, many years ago.

Today went out with my dad to do his stuff. Yea, he is always making me go along with him, which is rather maddening at times. But I guess I am quite lucky that my dad brings me out for exposure, and I should try to be appreciative of that.

So today, we met my dad’s old classmate whose working at EFG bank. I didn’t know such a bank existed, but apparently EFG stands for some European Financial Group if I remembered correctly. Then we had lunch at a nice Teochew restaurant while they talked about business stuff. The main reason why I hate to go for such stuff is coz I’m like a fool liddat, 20 years old already still dunno how to join in their conversation and this feeling really suxs. So I erm usually juz listen. Anyways, the food was great. The water chestnut drink was super nice and so was the yam paste.

After that, we went to meet a banker at American Express and listen to him talk about options, exchange, etc. As usual I don’t quite understand wad’s going on. But occasionally hear of put options and call options which we learn before in financial management. Then they were talking about buying put and call and it seems like the arbitrage opportunities that the fm lecturer mentioned but up till now I haf no idea how to calculate that, heng it didn’t come out for the exams. But that banker was like so knowledgeable, and he can think veri fast, I was like wow.

I guess I’m really lucky to haf such a dad.

The freaking rain screwed up our canoeing plan today. When I was on the mrt, actually already noticed the black clouds, but was hoping it wouldn’t rain. Argh, it always rains at the wrong time. Wad a wasted trip!

My parents and especially my dad is getting fed up with me lazing around, not studying, not reading, not working and juz wasting my life away. Come on! Its like onli the 3rd day since my exams ended. Why can’t I sleep for as long as I like? and I realli realli hate reading so can't u like spare me from this. Argh. This is so maddening. Yes, I’m going to work. And its too bad I can’t start earlier. Its juz less than 2 weeks before I start work so can I like play now while I still can? Life’s gonna get busy with work and night trainings starting in less than 2 weeks time.

Anyways, I’m gg out tmr. Nah, not shopping. I hate shopping. I’m going canoeing! Time to get out, before my dad gets even more fed up with me wasting my time and life doing nth productive. Not that he approves of canoeing either, its juz a waste of time to him. But who cares, I’m gonna haf fun tmr!

Time to start preparing for the next war. Haas, it’s the PM cup! I dun really care if I get to row anot anymore, which is most likely the case. I know I once had the chance and I screwed it up big time at regatta and I’m really sorrie to my teammates who had train hard for regatta even though it was juz days to the exams. That was the turning point and now I need to train hard to stay in the team. But I know I like the team, I like the sport and I want to stay in it. So let’s train hard together and get bring PM cup back. Its not gonna be easy but nothing worth getting comes easy.