Napha test todae...

Time flies…its been a yr since the last napha test, though it seems not too long ago…still struggling to accept the fact that I’m a senior already…oh wells….back then, we were ultimate worried abt the 14min timing for 2.4km (had onli clocked once below 14min…when I ran 4km every nite during 1st 3 mths of jc…was not crazy, back then was contemplating if I should join nj canoeing, haas, but stopped by that fear or hatred to canoe for causing that that will stay wif me for life)

Anyways, I still remember that last yr, it was seng kiet, my hall 2 camp fren, that ran wif me 2 nights b4 the actual test, to clock barely under 14min that gave me a lil assurance b4 the actual run…

But this time round, didn’t haf any assurance…my last timed 2.4km was last yr napha test...even wif 1 yr of training…somehow I feel less fit, less stamina than b4…

Fortunately, I did survive…it was a rather comfortable run…sighs, goes to show once again din not go all out…

started off with an ok pace, din chiong off straight away(usually I like to chiong the first few rounds…& tink abt the remaining rounds later…)…

felt quite high after the 3rd round…wanted to chiong a bit…budden decided to watch my pace, conserving some energy…BUT conserving energy failed…should not haf conserved…chuied at the 5th round…

din realli look at the timing…but tink its abt 12.20mins….1min improvement frm last yr…but dun realli haf that shiok feeling that I can say I haf done my best….I could haf pushed more…stop conserving…juz go all out now, and leave the rest to internal strength…

disappointed…nv doing anything right…

am not someone tt pple can rely on for encouragement, consoling, comforting, etc…somehow, I realli dunnoe how to encourage others, wad to say to comfort others, wad to reply when pple complain…sighs…always saying the wrong things...

randomness…somehow I’m always stuck inbetween conversations gg on ard me…yet not part of any…of awkwardness, of no mood to attempt to be part of it, of sometimes juz wanting to get away frm it….